Thursday, January 26, 2006
The sea from far began to cover the surface , How could my sadness be calmed down.
I remained straight-faced, trying to cover a hint of resignation.
You said that you wanted to leave
Love is absent
He remained silent with a tinge of sadness.
The raging waves.
(We) will understand that it is not the waves but a sea full of tears
Turn around and leave, I can’t speak out sincerely.
You have something to say but you can’t speak.
The love between a sea-bird and a fish, is only an accidental occurence.
Our love, has always been a controversial matter.
Our love has always existed, we can’t go back.
A love forever true, ends up accumulating pain.
How many times has waiting led to pain?
You have something to say but you can’t speak.
An azure coral sea, a missed momentary paleness.
At the beginning, both of our immature confessions.
You have my immature confession; that shouldn’t be.
When there’s no more warm feelings, smiles cannot be forced.
Your smiles cannot be forced.
Love is buried deep beneath the coral sea.
How do (we) rebuild the damaged sand sculpture , how could a relationship with cracks be fixed?
Only that all has ended too quickly and you said you could not understand why.
What surprises await in the shell.
Waiting for the flowers to bloom.
We do not want to play the guessing game anymore.
The sea breeze caressing the face , the salty love , (We) could not suppress the feelings for the future .
take me with you
8:41 PM
wasnt an exceptionally great day.
just that the eating part was fun.
shared with karthik some jollibean stuff.
haa....
added hersey's instead of the usual cheese.
tasted too sweet.
haha.
kept munching on this chip that i've never seen before.
had free drinks from polar.
which definitely taste better than upper crust's.
honesty is the best policy!
hoho.
then came some pastries from Bengawan Solo.
nice!
they said glenn cried on the phone last night.
which is probably why he didnt reply me.
and its all becuz of me.
how wonderful can this get...
an essential element is missing.certain things just arent meant to be.as usual i'd handled it impulsively.if only i could turn back time,i wouldnt let this happen.and perhaps i would be happier.at least i know i was back then...everything's just an illusion.haha.wakeup, whitesand!idontfeelanything.idontgiveadamn.seriouslyweird.
take me with you
8:01 PM
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
i dont give a fucking damn.
haha.
everything's bullshit.
sometimes life just suck.
it could have been better if you let it be.
could have.
but honestly, isnt such ideology crappy?
so screw it.
haha.
whatever it is
i dont need it man.
i'm dead tired.
so bye.
needa get ready to face all the shit that would be coming my way tomorrow.
take me with you
11:14 PM
Monday, January 23, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOCKS!
take me with you
8:51 AM
Friday, January 20, 2006
working at the airport exposes you to many heart rending scenes. yesterday 2 lttle boys were yelling and crying away because their maid was leaving spore.
reminded me of 'guava'...
was trying real hard to swallow back the tears that were welling up.
i felt sad.
my throat hurts.
anyway, passed the tuition task to linus.
haha.
felt kinda bad coz she wanted me to teach.
oh well.
he said i was less active as compared to the past.
that is before i started work.
even though i'm practically paid just to stand there and take up space, i feel super lethargic.
yawn.
was supposed to catch up with people like adam and jeremy after a's ended last year.
but... haha...
and i havent passed lionel his super belated xmas gift.
pang seh linus.
havent seen jess in a longgg time.
sigh.
on a lighter note, i'd be meeting ade and gang on sunday!
yayness (((:
and meeting my squash babes on monday!
yippee.
i miss training with them sooo much.
/double grins.
life's beautiful if you let it be...
take me with you
8:54 PM
Thursday, January 19, 2006
y.a.w.n
gotta work tomorrow!
naveen took "mc" at the last minute.
due to some political conflicts which i abhor.
heard my supervisor is a real hypocrite.
now this is scary cos he's been kinda nice to me so far.
boo.
and you know.
when there're many customers, you'll go insane making those banguettes.
but when there isnt a single soul, it drives one crazy just staring into space.
and to get yourself occupied, one cleans up the entire place!
haha.
seriously, my room isnt that clean so to speak.
angela's finally starting work tomorrow!
hope she doesnt get screwed by saravanan.
and i cant comprehend why some people like to on their mp3 aloud in public.
to make things worst, the songs played were probably recorded decades ago.
very cool meh!
/roll eyes
am not credulous. it scares me.
what the hell is wrong with me.
after so long...
the thought of it still shudders me.
no faith in myself?
most probably so.
i feel hopeless.
i feel like shit.
why is this happening.
why do i feel a tinge of sadness.
im scared.
screw it.
take me with you
8:34 PM
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
ah. 2 more morning shifts before my off days!
yay.
supervisor gave me 11/10 for my performance for the past 4 days!
(:
working isnt quite a chore now.
just that i burn myself at least 5times daily.
that shannon lee-look-alike is sucha weird and vulgar person.
calling my name seems like a way of entertaining himself.
annoying.
justin and gang are going to kbox tomorrow night!!
tuition starts on friday!
no idea how to teach pri4 eng.
panic.
the more i pursue
the further it gets from me...
take me with you
8:45 PM
sigh.
the cook's fired.
though he's quite a pain at times, he's nice and even taught me to cut tomatoes!
something which i'd always thought was an easy task until recently.
glenn is nice.
always got scolded by the supervisor cuz of me.
so poor thing haha.
kartik is alright just that he always tries to get me into trouble.
and said i look more like a sec sch kid.
basket.
oh ya met someone who resembles shannon lee han quan!
stunned.
looks really alike.
hahaha
i miss going to school.
take me with you
6:49 AM
Monday, January 16, 2006
incoherent thoughts.
intangible ideas.
sometimes i wonder...
who'll be there
sometimes i wonder...
whether fantasies do happen in reality
i really do
take me with you
9:08 PM
Saturday, January 14, 2006
haha.. working at upper crust is exhausting!
woke up in the wee hours at 5.30 ok. its been ages since i last woke up THAT early!
anyway, work was ok.
my supervisor's nice.
but glenn(my new colleague) says that it'll take some time before my supervisor shows his true colours!
this thought is seriously daunting.
scary.
and honestly, several things mentioned at upper crust is merely bullshit!
really.
its not really nice being detailed here but you'll get what i mean after you've seen whats mentioned at upper crust.
dont be fooled!
hoho.
i've got a student!
yayness!
but i've no idea how to write a primary school english compo leh...
hahaha
how!!
need to read up soon!
arghhhh
think i missed an important call just now!
and the wonderful me forgot to return the call.
shit.
take me with you
8:52 PM
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
i hope he's fine. outfield.
take me with you
9:20 PM
seriously.. i reckon its retribution.
think about it...
after going through all the troubles to look for vacancies...
she called to withdraw saying she's elsewhere with better offers
and she rejected the opportunity given and left you alone
simply bcuz the benefits of the ones you've found arent attractive enough. for her.
and that the possibility of getting in is way too low...
and so... she forsaked you and went somewhere else...
calling just to inform you that she wouldnt be going with you!
but alas!
thankfully you got it! and she... who decided to leave initally came back empty-handed.
and now... needs your help. once again.
so what is it called?
selfish?
thick-skinned?
whatever.
no matter how well this particular person treats me in future...
sorry man.. i'll never ever forget this incident.
its not bcuz i was deeply hurt or stuff like that
but bcuz... i've seen your true colours.
when you need help, you go to others.
thats fine.
but once there's better offers out there... you strike single handedly.
leaving that person to face the music alone.
it disgusts me know.
such character.
the thought of it totally irks me.
w.o.n.d.e.r.f.u.l
take me with you
9:01 PM
he makes me smile =]
Kick off your 2006 in style.
GLOW @ ONE (one fullerton)
14 Jan Sat 10pm.
Hip Hop RnB all night with DMC Champ DJ Rattle
FANTASTIC drinks promos!
Absolute vodka bottle @ $111 and $20 jugs ALL NIGHT
Presale tix guy $18 gals $15
Be seen at the best RnB Party!!!
take me with you
12:11 PM
Thursday, January 05, 2006
even i find it absurd.after waiting for 1 whole day.after having countless thoughts.it appears fruitless.am disappointed./pouts
take me with you
10:25 PM
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
just finished watching SangDoo! Let's go to school! starring RAIN!
hehe.
This drama is a story about his love.
He and Chae Eunhwan loved each other for 15 years. But they never held each other to the warmth of their hearts or tell each other of their love. They always crossed each other. The prejudice and hypocrisy of the world always deceived them and tortured them. While other lovers communicated each other with skinship and language of love, they wasted their time with saying and doing things they don't mean at all like provoking a quarrel, ignoring, irritating each other by going out with others and hurting each other's feelings with the most irritating words. But they never sorrowed, complained, or despaired.
They believe in love.
In this sad world where they believe money than love, Sangdu says gaily.
There is love! Love is the only hope!
a very nice show.
certain parts are funny.
but certain parts make you cry like mad.
haaz~...
must watch!
take me with you
5:40 PM
Monday, January 02, 2006
yawn. went to meet gabe for supper at 85.
feiiiii.passed him his present.
finally.my mum kept saying how begger-like the sweat shirt is and just wouldnt stop laughing.
she said she bet he wouldnt like it.
grrrrr.but i think its nice leh.
talked rubbish as usual.
haa.
about the past. the people who've changed tremendously over the past 2years.
gabe is still as nonsensical, crappy and talkative.
still remember how i used to complain to ade that i couldnt tolerate gabe cuz he just wouldnt stop yakking away!
haha.
no matter what happened between us in the past.
or between me and justin.
i'm glad that its over.
and that we're still good friends.
am glad he didnt go astray.
that he's a sensible mind.
unlike the other let downs.
gabe told me that his friend whom we met at One wanted to know me.
heng ar.
gabe shoo-ed him away.
heh.
nights!..
/dreams about Rain <3
take me with you
5:35 PM
yay its the new year!
happy new year everyone! =]
yesterday was awesome!
met up with ade, justin and gabe at parkway in the afternoon.
that justin just wouldnt stop smoking! even though i detest smokers, we just have to accept them for who they are. afterall, we were in the same class for 4yrs. the sad thing is, so many of my friends are smokers.
damn.ok so we went to this hotel at parkway hoping to book a room but it was fully booked. zzz.
and guess where did we end up at?
hotel 81.
geez.
that place
suck man. i'll never ever go back to that place again.
not only is the room atrocious, whenever we walked out of the hotel, we got weird stares.
once, when ade and i walked out of the hotel, the drivers of
the cars parking in front of us turned and gave us the "
woah" look.
we were like
wtf?
was so embarrassing and annoying!
spent the entire afternoon there and headed to plaza sing for dinner and to meet edwin(justin's friend).
thereafter, the wonderful justin lied that the soccer match between west ham and dont-know-which-team was at 745 but in fact it was at 845!
that idiot.
so we rotted at this dont know what place oppostie parklane mall.
justin just wanted to smoke this huge thing which gives out some fruity smell.
that
bastard. haaz.
then we walked to esplanade.
boo.
it was sooo crowded that i nearly died from oxygen starvation.
while we were squeezing through the crowd, gabe had to protect us.
haha...but i molested him by accident. oh well. haha.
ok here comes the most hilarious part...........
edwin was
assaulted by an indian worker!
muhahaha.
that indian man was walking towards edwin and all of a sudden he wiped his arm across edwin's chest.
hahahaha...
i bet he thought edwin was a girl. LOL.
and so we contiuned squeezing through the crowd while edwin mumbled words of frustration.
hahaha.
arrived at the merlion park at 11pm.
frankly speaking, it was the first time i've seen the merlion with soo many friends.
haha.
so we stood and waited for the fireworks for an hour.
freaking squeezy laaa.
was highly amused at the astonising amount of crowd present.
oh ya thanks gabe for being my arm rest. heh.
ade and i ended up standing on a chair.
hah.
and boy, the fireworks was truly breathe-taking!
1o whole mins!
my heart exploded with delight throughout the 1o whole mins.
it was really beautiful!
those who've missed it, its really your lost manz.
was a pity we didnt get any spray cans.
lol.
then we headed to One with rina and xueling.
and we got attacked by this girl with spray cans in the lift cuz we waited for her.
ha.. what a way to thank people! boo.
the night was totally fun!
gabe warned me that that idiot justin wanted to get me drunk but too bad.
he underestimated me la.
haha.
there were 2 guys at the dance floor who tried to dirty dance with me.
but before they knew it, i was gone. heh!
had a wonderful time there.
even though i was walking side ways.
even though i nearly puked.
even though i nearly went deaf.
even though i smelt of cigarette smoke.
left at about 3+.
a fight nearly broke out between some indian and chinese.
anyway, we waited for more than an hour for the cabs!
basket.every single cab was on-call!
wtf la.
if we called, they could only earn 3bucks more but that would be outweighed by their petrol cost!
what for going in circles if they refused to stop.
so irrational!
they ought to learn some
economics! hehZ!
plus i bet cabbies could definitely earn more if they hadnt put the on-call signs.
there was this cabbie whom, upon seeing us, put the on-call sign immediately.
basket la. it was so obvious can! Zzz...
while we were sitting along the road side, we were splashed with water not once but
twice!
by 2 on-going cars.
"hey wassup man!" *splashes*
idiots!!
finally reached the hotel at about 5.
and 3 of us dropped dead on the bed. haa.
and we left at 6+.
am bone tired now.
i'd a wonderful time.
was a great way to spend the last few moments of 2005 and welcoming 2006. =)
hoho.
once again,
happy new year!Helloooo 2006 =] ***
take me with you
7:32 AM
